Wake Up n Wake UP!!!

ITS time i have to waKE up....i have been indulging in My own world..always Tinking oni....haizz...the 1st tHIng is the reality of my future job..no matter is my bank or events jobs..bOth r nt haviNg a GD start.....i have send my resumes out to BAnks but to no response...n for my EVents...i realise me n my grp of ushers have been replaced by others at max pavilion...i m short of 1 more opportunity....haizz....i have always thOught my UShers r gd...arent they...or is it we r too compleasant alreadY? i do not knw..the ushers i seem...they r pro active in apporachin pple..tats all..they r nt experience in controlling crowd...catchin video cams etc....me n my frenz r nt pro..but we r definetly better than them..n their image...no standarised uniform..wat the...i have no comments ya..maybe coz they r cheaper for hiring..where on the reality side..my ushers are always complaining pay r low..but pple r willing to wrk for 30 an event...

the 2nd thINg....maybe wat ah Kim said is rite...i shld have a grey area for my frenz ya....he said i m too extreme to the case either close or not close.....n on the way hm..i keep thinking....i m so lost....n when i read abT sumthing at suMwhere....it Juz Make me reaLise...hw close m i to the Person..i guESs nt even a closeness at all...maybe its juz all a 1 sided frenShip......

ah Kim also told me pple might nt treaT me imPT at all...pple might juz treaT me as normal fren leh....maybe this is juz the fact,the reality..juz tat i dont wana faCe it....

ARGh...its time to wake up n BUck up...i have to force myself to achieve greaT achievements in my carreers.....Hope everYthing will be over soOn...time to hibernate myself.....2ml is my 1st event...wrking with an overseas company..hOpe i dun screw up...=)

Fear of RejEction frOm mY frenz?

hmmm...okie...2daY went to SHop wiTH jereMY..for whOle day...was tiring..help him CHoose his tshirt n jackets..ehheh..always be his image consultant....Muz charGe him consultation fee liao...=X...

Ok...anyWay...woooHooo....ANgela gt me a Pair of Tix to JJ siXology Concert dis SUn....definitely....PPle whu flashes to my mind is kassie,sh,Gh,celine....melvin,Sum1,ming seng.daniel,kIM long...so many..hahah..ultimately i of coz choose those JJ fanz 1st ya..coz i k brin oni 1.....so Kassie is nt freee coz dating..hahah..then SH exams ard the corner..so dun even nid to ask..n GH gt wedding dinner...n for celine..ahha..she like nt so siao JJ leh....although she like JJn she dun go out on sun!!....=p...so 4get it ya....melvin was in TW....so...Sum1 was the 1st i sms...hmm...even though i knew the ANs would be no..dunO y stil sms SUm1 ya...n i gt my ans beri late...n then was ming seng.....coz i realise he like JJ too....coz he sing JJ song..=p.....anyway..he dun wana go coz he gt many things to do.....n so i called daniel n kim long..end up was ah kim go with me...nt bad rite...i gt think of them de...hahah....

hmmm..there's 1 more clse fren tat i tHought of....hmmm...dunO y aslo....feel like asking..but coz of the fear of rejection..enD up i gif Up..maybe i duN have the courAge to FAce This frenSHip....is it Our frenshiP driFted so Much...or is it juZ nt IMpt....???is it AlwayS a Sry can coVer eVeryTHing....i was NT so emO..til Ytd..coz fiNDIng piX for Gor..n i searCH hiGh n low in every folder in my COmp...n i CAMe acRoss oUR PIX....hw I mIss ThE Times WHen We r CloSe....is It tat ppLE do CHange or i m CHanging???

i am WOndering hw LOng more B4 We wil mIt UP...n i even have this tinKIng..if i Stop taking the initiative..does it mean we r juz gnG to keep drifting......aLthough i dun wan this to be haPPening.but currently..it juz seems so......

PS: Y m i always havINg pple treAt me dis way...or i juz xiang tai duo?? T_T

Lee Hom----> MuSICMan 2008!!!

Okie...fiNally..i nw haVE moOD to Blog abt Lee hOm conCert..hhehe..okie....SO Lee hom conCert is on 1st Nov 2008.. a Sat n it was dUring my ExAM PERIod!!!..ahaah.but no CHoice..i boUght the Tix during Sept..hehehe.....

I meT up witH melvin ard 5pm to go over indoor for dinner at Mushroom Pot...n me being so mountain tortoise..nv knew the mushroom pot was behind the loading Bay of indoor..ahhah..n i keep saying..have meh..y i always go there or wrk there..i have nv seen it.....so we reach ard 5 plus at indoor..n when pass by loading bay...many fanz were crowding there..n then i realise was...oh...LeEHOm coming out to pray wor..heheh...the standard procedures for all artist b4 a concert start....but too bad melvin dun wana wait..so we juz went to markan le..ehhe....

MushroOm pot was stil as nice as it is...standard nv drop..the last time i ate was 2 yrs agO with ah Gor...eheheh....the oni difference is now..they use PDAs to take order...eheh.....anyway...after dinner..we r stil early...n we went to leisure park n hang ard...n then went in ard 7.20..coz i wana c merchandise....nt much nice stuffs other than the tshirt n pendant..but pendant was way too ex...50 bucks..!!!

Melvin bought the tshirt..was nice..but i stil feel he shld buy M la..end up he went bac to change to L...mnuahahaha.....

ANyway...we finally gt settle dwn at our seaTs...n yesh..the view is damn Near..i Luv it..ehehh....n it was almst full hse.....wor....n it was High frm the stArt..unbelievable... His guitar was damn cool.....his costumes wise was simple..maybe is a guy ba..so cant be as nice as ah mei or sammi they all.....i manage to record all the SOngs i wanted..n was like...wow..hAPpy..gd quality n can c his faces one..indoor ushers r getting more n more slack...compare with our ushers at expo..mauahah..i tink we r better ya..=p.... oh..n sun yan zi n kit chan was there....n they were kinda discrete kind..but yanzi nv expect lee hom will interview her..ahhah..at end of the concert..the tawianese reporter stil said..yanzi...dui bu ji leh....nv inform u 1st..coz we wana have a special suprise for every1...

waah...we jUMp over at end of concert to find yanzi.too bad....she said cant take pix...melvin was so exicted...heheh...i feel was fun ya..jumping frm arena seaTs to premier ground...1st time did tat in my life....hehehe..ok..i tink is long enuf....i shall let the picture describe those who is reading ba...as they said...a picture speaks a thousand words....=)

Isn't it cool to be on tat space shuttle?
Different colors oF lee Hom..=p

Bday GreeTings frm every1

okie...so morning after Ming Seng.....comes chunling and kellyn wishing me haPPy bday..then i goT a sms frm celine.....then out of suprise was hweeping..my ex collegues frm Music Junction...then was MElvin..haha..he realise is my bday..2day..=p....follow by Kassie....n Jacquline.....n Gor....msg me in tHE Noon........oh..and i aslo i received bday greetIngs frm my BMT Buddy too..so shOcked he remember..coz i realise his bday is 2ml...on the 14..mauhaahah........n Kelly sms me too..n her baby boI stil nt coming out..ahahha....

tHen was anGEla...heheh..2ml wil be ktving with her....n hmm...follow by anthony....n WEndy..my sis frenz...she remember it too..suprisely....then was eugene, shihui....n when i was having my dessert at demsye hill....sUM1 msg me..hahah...sum1 prove me wrg le.....n follow by GODma..ahhaha.....n when i gt hm..greeting frm ling xian n huixian n Jifang..heheh....n Lastly..my cousin..ZIxiang sms b4 my bday end..=p....

Thanks to every1 including those being mentioned in the previous entry..=p....

i tink i GoT my ans..isNT it???

Hmmm...hahahha....okie...fiNally 2day is my BDAY!!!hahah..n the DEadline has end isnt it?hhah..okok..if i continue to decieve myself..maybe..there are stil so many hrs...as in..nw is 8.33am ba......

Ok...here goes the wishEs i get frm every1...frm the earliest is mr danIel wishin me super early happY bday..follow by ah BEn.....coz hes nw in field camp....and then.....was ah Kim......n the on dotz was MS chiNG chINg..n Weicheng!!! ah Ching took the effort to msg me rigHT on the dotE...n WC to bothered to calL me at 12 midnite..muahahah....hao You xin wor.....oh ya..n was nicholas msning with me..whu aslo greeted me..=p...then nw...is Mingseng..ahhah..when i said i 2ml celebrating my bday..but at least he greEt me a hAPpy bdaY ya....

TaTs all.....Pathetic me...aint I.....

Hmm..ya....so SUm1 is bAc...saw Sum1 online...so was like...oh u....u r bac....n hes reply was...nt free now...com gt problems...ahaha....i haVE gOt anS....bu shI ma...its defineTly nt in sum1 MInd abT my bdAY....i dUN even waN anY prEsent..But Juz a SImple WIsh...

Juz Have to Face realitY ba...dis yr Seems to be my WOrst bdAY...hahah....all My frenz r nt Ard..maybe all r buSY with own wrk/studies/life.....eTc.....

I m actually rotting at hM Ytd alone..til now.....or even later..ONi til nite then Miting Gor....

WHAt a BORING bdaY!!!!yaWnzzzz....sObzzzzz

Exams is Over?NO more Exams or I nid to REPEat

fInallY...my exams are over......the initial tHought was...weee....graduated...i m Free frm stUDies.....haizz..but the reality dragS me bac...i m NT....2 of mY papers were difFiCult......I m nt gNG to gradUate...i canT lOOk for jOB nw...i am hit by Reality..m i reallie goiNg to get a 1.6k or even LEsser jobs...haizz......

There is 3weEks more to the reality..but i doubt it wil Change..i m totAlly nt in Mood to enJoY.even thougH my BDay is coming..haizz..n aslO...i camE to reaLise tat...whU careS abT my bDay.....nt even 1 bOthers....i m 4ever the least impt in every of my frenz heart ba...tats wat i feel.....

PS: ALone at hm aiNT feeliNg good lo......

8 more days to mY bday

TIme flies....5 more days my exams end..but i aint exicted at all.....i fear the day that results release...i m so nt confident of passing n my future..wat i planned..all wil be messy....haiz......

RIght nw shld be mUGging..but jUZ canT get Those Fp STUFFS INtO my BRain..argH...jIUmINg ah.....

MayBE my Mood JUz nw riTE ba....my bdaY is coming soOn..i m nt exciTED too..coz seems like No ones Cares..so hard to plaN.....dunO wat to do too..haizzzz.....n suM of my GD frenz....stiL nt sure Free AnoT...when I heard liaO..i feLT saD..maybe to them BDay is nTH ba.....n one of thEM even had a small arguement with Me over sum THings relating to mY bDAy..end Up..i dun Wana fORce it...scare thIngs will tURN bad...juz have AccePt the fATe ba...haizzzzz

PS: whY izzit My frenSHip with u....seems drifted to the mAX le....but THeres stil a tiny LittLE hope in ME that it wiLL Change..but it does not seeMS so....is IT alWays a SOrry....frOM u...that keeP me pending for more hOPe...all the tHIngs tat Happened juz mAKe me Feel....so SO SAd n disaPPointed......thIS feeliNG is worse than hOW sum1 treATs me....arGH....

eh..i muz sTOp emO..bac to stUDies...after exam tat THink..muz JIAYOU!!!

NXt entry wil be LEE hOM coNCERT ba...ehheeh..muz tink of hAPPy tHIngs to CHeer me up...